Some of you that are regulars might have noticed I've not been posting all that regularly lately. And I haven't. Lately it would be a stretch to say I've been insecure, I've just been down right depressed. Normally I would try to give myself a pep talk and say push threw these negitive emotions and get your self back on your feet. But right now, laying down and giving up seems rather easy (and this is not a suicide referance) that might be cause I'm currently a little bit drunk, or it might be cause I'm a little bit tired.
Let me outline the last two weeks for you.
I got laid off from my job. A job I loved at a company that I'd work with for approximately five years. Why? Restructuring. What does that mean? I don't know.
They had to put my horse down. He wasn't really my horse but he was the last horse I trained before I moved to DC for the above mentioned job.
I've been on a couple interviews, three to be exact, with three pyramid schemes.
Today my car's been towed. Which if you combine with the concerns about money really make it a shitty month.
So yeah. I'm not insecure. I just have no confidence in myself right now. And too much stress to focus on getting some. So if it's okay with you, I'm going to take a day or a week, or maybe two and wallow in self pitty from the flat of my back. And although I'm not interested in that kinda thing, its a great view to upskirt girls.
Forgive me. I'm drunk.
Sara
Sara, I'm so sorry. My gosh, all this piling up at once must be so hard.
ReplyDeleteYou have every right to take some time. Though it will be hard, make sure you take this time you have now to steer your life in the direction you want it to go. There's no strings so ask yourself what you want and go get it. Because you can get it.
Yes, you've had a crappy week. You deserve a week of self-pity. But after that week you have to get back on your feet. You have awesome amounts of talent, something will open up for you!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're going through such a rough time. I hope things turn around for you ASAP. Take care.
ReplyDeleteSome Dark Romantic
I'm sorry to hear this, but you're taking it like a champ. If it wasn't for alcohol, I don't know how I'd handle things. I'd probably talk to people or cry or something awful like that. Things will get better.
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