Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Blogging Fail

So, I havent writen a post in like forever, okay well only if forever happens to be september, but still its been a while. So I figure I need to post a new post.

This November, I started using Eharmony, they had a free comunication event and I figured, what the heck, it could be fun. But then I noticed, I wasnt replying to any of the emails or anything, not that I wasnt interested, I just didnt care. So that and another friend asking me for advice on how to stay single got me thinking, I should write a book like "The single girls guide to staying single"

But at the same time I wonder, is that what I really want for myself? In some ways it is, I am happy where I am right now, I am only 26, and I dont need another person to make me feel fufilled. I get annoyed when friends ask me why I dont have a boy friend, but I also get annoyed when friends say I dont date.

So what do I want? The truth is I dont know.

What I do know is that I really dont like to be touched by strangers, I went to a bar this weekend and this guy tried to dance with me, and every time he tried to touch me I froze up. Another guy (at a party a few weeks prior) brushed my hair out of my eyes (a jesture which is pretty inherently romantic) and I freaked out. I have dated in the past and have never had a problem with guys I am with touching me, or close friends (I am a hugger) but I really have issue with randoms touching me. So that might be something I need to get over, or just not try to meet guys at bars. Or not try to meet guys at all.

Ugh. Anyway. I think my new years resolution is going to be to write every day on this and my novel, and maybe go to the gym 2-3 times a week. Is that to much?

Over and out.

Song for the day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLJf9qJHR3E

Cause everytime I watch it it makes me happy.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Freedom is Not Free

So, this weekend one of my facebook friends, a woman I am not particularly close to (she is my dad's co-workers wife and she friended me, and I didn't want to ignore her cause I felt like it would be rude) posted as her status:

"This is America. If you protest at one of our soldier's funerals then you don't deserve to live here."

I couldn't help but be a little peeved at this, to quote the constitution, which to me, embodies everything this country is SUPPOSED to stand for

Amendment 1 Bill of Rights:
"Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the government for a redress of grievances."

If soldiers are not fighting and dying to protect these rights what are they fighting for? I for one, would be appalled, if I fought and died for other people's freedoms just to have them taken away in my name or honor. Perhaps that's why I am not a solider. But Honestly, I think that represents the close mindedness that is strangling our country.

People need to recognize that just because something is tasteless and perhaps immoral, it doesn't make it wrong. It is tasteless to build a mosque near the world trade center, simply because it might offend people, it is tasteless to protest at a soldiers funeral, its tasteless to wear a swastika. I could list tasteless things all day, but the simple fact is that ITS A FREE COUNTRY, and people seem to have forgotten that.

During this fight against Terrorism, we need to make sure we remember who we are, and what we stand for. Keeping Benjamin Franklin's word's in mind "Those who would give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety."

Hope everyone had a good labor day, celebrating those who stood up together and demanded more.

Here is your Happiness for the day!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Blind Day:

I have had a headache for the past week, so I decided, maybe, my glasses prescription was no longer correct, so I took my glasses off, the headache wasn't all that bad, still there, but not all that bad. And I suffered through the day, squinting at the blurry people blobs moving about my office, seeing the stuff close to my face, but it wasn't enough to keep me from getting blind sided. In a facebook conversation with my sister. She is 19. We both agreed that neither of our parents could ever have part of our liver, and I realized, she can see them, as people. After she got offline, it took me a few moments to realize why this shook me up so much. There were the normal reasons of course, the guilt I feel for not sticking around to protect them (her and my other 2 sisters), the shame that this is my family, but then I guess the real issue is the wrongness of it all.

Children are not supposed to tell their parents, "you cant have a piece of my liver". They aren't supposed to wake up in the middle of the night and see their mother, passed out on the toilet. They aren't supposed to completely disregard a parents authority, and move in with a boy friend at 16, they shouldn't be able to throw a parent into a bedroom and lock the door. How can I know all of these things and still be blind sided by the fact that my Nineteen year old sister, who still lives at home, can actually look past the normal relationship teenagers have with their parents, and see them as humans. As actual people, with faults. I think that's what really threw me off. My mom is an alcoholic, and my father has given up, and it is okay, because I cannot change it, and, because they cant either.

Quote for the day: "I'm surrounded by gay midgets. Not sure if I'm bragging or asking you to rescue me. Wait for follow up" from texts from last night.